Went for dinner with Min just now... talk about our bfs. You know, the feeling of talking about them is sweet... like talk and talk your heart will flutter? Not the complaining kind of feeling, but the “thinking of the bf and how stewpig and how cute and how good and how loved they are” kind of feeling? Hahaha hard to describe! I guessed that’s the “happily attached” kind of feeling. Will I miss this feeling when talking about hunnie after he goes Dubai? I think I will have “missing and sad” feeling once he flies... haiz!!!!
Frankly, hunnie really drives me mad at times, I almost wanted to stand up and walk away. He doesn’t pamper me, doesn't say nice things about me, sometimes he make me feel I’m not worth a cent. He doesn’t reply my sms often and also doesn’t like to chat on the phone with me. He doesn’t praise me, not even tell me that I look good when I ALWAYS take the effort to dress up for him, he ALWAYS think that I am ugly and fat. Sometimes I don’t know what am I to him, I don’t feel important at all. He has expectations and I need to fulfill. Worst still, he doesn’t trust me.
So yah, if I tell people– they will just say, so why bother this relationship?
Sometimes I will think why he can’t bring me to holidays when all my friends’ boyfriend bring them to everywhere... showering them with gifts and love.. Praise them of how pretty they are... and so the more I think, the angrier I am. Then I cooled down, and think... the reason that I am angry is simply because I am comparing to others, by comparing then I will feel this is unfair... So why compare?
There are times he makes me feel like the luckiest gal around, he cares for me, deep into my health and daily well-being. He plays with me and always able to cheer me up. I feel most comfortable with him, I feel attached to him and that is what most important and matters to me. I trust him completely. Very good thing is that we do not quarrel, if either party is angry or unreasonable... we let each other cool down... and all things will be fine very soon. We do not have argument. Our relationship has been smooth sailing. How many couple out there can be like this? I know of many couples, they really quarrel almost every time... we are lucky that our relationship is not like this coz I strongly believe that each and every one quarrel brings a small scar to the relationship if not handled properly.
I believe every relationship has its own unique way. I believe that hunnie indeed love me a lot but bad at expressing himself... he never did tell me how much he loves me and how much he scared to lose me. Perhaps he just doesn’t feel good doing that. Though many times I get upset thinking of what I’m not given, what I don't have and what he doesn’t give me. But I learnt that I should be grateful of what I have, what I’m given, instead of the opposite. Truly, Life seems much better when people is contented. Though sometimes unhappy why he always asking and demanding this and that – just shows that he doesn’t love me for what I am. Now I know, although the way he portray his expectations is not in my preferred way, its still his way of showing his care and concern. He wants me to learn.
Frankly, hunnie really drives me mad at times, I almost wanted to stand up and walk away. He doesn’t pamper me, doesn't say nice things about me, sometimes he make me feel I’m not worth a cent. He doesn’t reply my sms often and also doesn’t like to chat on the phone with me. He doesn’t praise me, not even tell me that I look good when I ALWAYS take the effort to dress up for him, he ALWAYS think that I am ugly and fat. Sometimes I don’t know what am I to him, I don’t feel important at all. He has expectations and I need to fulfill. Worst still, he doesn’t trust me.
So yah, if I tell people– they will just say, so why bother this relationship?
Sometimes I will think why he can’t bring me to holidays when all my friends’ boyfriend bring them to everywhere... showering them with gifts and love.. Praise them of how pretty they are... and so the more I think, the angrier I am. Then I cooled down, and think... the reason that I am angry is simply because I am comparing to others, by comparing then I will feel this is unfair... So why compare?
There are times he makes me feel like the luckiest gal around, he cares for me, deep into my health and daily well-being. He plays with me and always able to cheer me up. I feel most comfortable with him, I feel attached to him and that is what most important and matters to me. I trust him completely. Very good thing is that we do not quarrel, if either party is angry or unreasonable... we let each other cool down... and all things will be fine very soon. We do not have argument. Our relationship has been smooth sailing. How many couple out there can be like this? I know of many couples, they really quarrel almost every time... we are lucky that our relationship is not like this coz I strongly believe that each and every one quarrel brings a small scar to the relationship if not handled properly.
I believe every relationship has its own unique way. I believe that hunnie indeed love me a lot but bad at expressing himself... he never did tell me how much he loves me and how much he scared to lose me. Perhaps he just doesn’t feel good doing that. Though many times I get upset thinking of what I’m not given, what I don't have and what he doesn’t give me. But I learnt that I should be grateful of what I have, what I’m given, instead of the opposite. Truly, Life seems much better when people is contented. Though sometimes unhappy why he always asking and demanding this and that – just shows that he doesn’t love me for what I am. Now I know, although the way he portray his expectations is not in my preferred way, its still his way of showing his care and concern. He wants me to learn.
SIGH… He should also be truly grateful to have such an understanding and considerate me! Hahaha I think I am a gem nor... But he did mention that I am just a normal girl – alright, back to the beginning… this comment from him really makes me INSIDE JUMPING mad OKIE.
AIYA. Sometimes, woman xu yao bei hong hong yi de la.. wah piangz..
