I've typed a whole long entry but i decided to delete it. Simple.. I just don't want to remind myself how shitty it could feel. NOBODY understands me.

只要你做一天的我
让你过一天我的心情
耗劲所有热情
所有决心还被你否定
是多么不公平

last weekend..

hehehehe

So tired! Took many many photos during sis wedding.. been busy since friday because cousins are in town! brought them to sentosa.. love the 4D magix and the Song of the Sea! Hunnie is great... !

us @ vivocity.. like a tourist!

Sentosa 4D Magix!

hahaha someone being lame!

Then we slept at 3AM.. woke up at around 4.30AM.... coz it's sis BIG DAY! dress pretty, makeup pretty...!!!

day time:-

here comes the groom..

the game..

the act pretty..

us!


the sisters and the bride..

with elder cousin..

the all cousins and apple!


night time:
dinner..


naz & ernie!


me & bonbon

busy busy! pretty right hahhahaa

I'm quite free actually.. that's why blogging 'almost' everyday!

I just finished baking cookies and biscuits for mum -- happy! coz dad tried and he said 'not bad' :)


Now waiting for the cookies to cool down.

Cousins will be coming to Singapore tomorrow! So excited.. hunnie said he will plan all itineries.. looking forward to see what he has planned for us..........

I am so going to be so so busy from tomorrow onwards that's a good thing.. because don't have to think so much. Reunion dinner this year? sigh.. perhaps only me and mum now.

Last year… December I went to temple and got a lot – not about myself... About them. It’s a good lot that I’ve got and heaved a sigh of relieve. But things don’t seem to be that way now. I don’t know what. Haiz, don’t want to think about that now. Should I trust marriage? There’s nothing in the world that is forever. Definitely not love right… people change. I’m not the kind that expresses me easily. I don’t feel good pouring out my feelings; I swallow my tears or cry myself to sleep. I love having the space and time to sort out how I thought and felt – alone sometimes. I learn things the hard way - very hard in some instances. I think nobody really understands me. This year…. I wanted to do something drastic this year, be happier, enjoy life more - the whole look back with no regrets thing. I want a good year to learn how to grow up, to sort out messy matters, to find out who I wanted to be.

shoppingggggggggggggggggg!!

it's been ages since we went shopping TOGETHER! hunnie got 2 pair of levis and 2 shirts :) i got myself a lipstick, a necklace and a pair of earrings (only) bahhh! ate at thai express ----- NOT NICE lah! how to compare with my mum's and aunty's! but i like the day spent with hunnie.



he wants to have beard!.. (beard papa?) hahaha lets see how manly he will be after he trim his beard nicely..



he keep saying i dunno how to "be pretty" in front of camera. like.. Huhhh..... okie i shall go do research and see which angle i will "be pretty"...

nonetheless.. thanks hunnie..... for walking into my life :)

and..

for always being so accomodating in every littlest way. Even if it means me in "attitude problem mode". for always being so patient and forgiving with me. for bringing me out to do things I like even when its his exact dislike (e.g. SHOPPING!) for always cracking me up with i-also-dunno-what (though i don't understand most of the time).. and, for loving me and making me a better person.

resolutions

1. lose weight
2. eat and not get fat
3. flawless skin
4. loving relationship with hunnie
5. enough $$ to go holidays
6. happy family
7. driving licence
8. good salary increment + bonus
9. bake a cake (professional kind of cake!)
10. play jackpot
11. learn dancing and boxing

R&D :)

Its been nearly 1.5 years that I'm with R&D.. a few colleagues that I'm comfortable to mingle with :) ironically, they are not from my corp sec team! I don't know why, i'm just not close to my own team members.. hehehehhe majority from the shipping team! Reason being, they are sitting just around me :) The noisy, but fun bunch of people! Especially Vera! We clicked and like what Amy said "mistress".. because we practically do everything together. hmmmmm perhaps because we are of closer age gap?