While chatting with xm yesterday, we chanced upon this topic - how well you think your boyfriend treated you... and oh gosh! I felt so D.U.H. its been soooooooooooo long since i went out with the Mr Boyfriend on a date! OMG.. since he came back from shanghai, we have not go out shopping, dinner, movie..just the two of us.. my life is becoming so stagnant. I dun feel like going out on weekends, i dun feel like going shopping, i dun feel like dressing up, low esteem, feel ugly, feel the whole world is owing me money, feel that my life is so duh. house is renovating i feel even worst becuase i got no place to do my assignment worst still, i do not know how to do at all even if i have a computer. i also feel sucky coz mr bf seems to be changing.. dunno change what, just that he is not the same, not as loving, not as sensitive, we are like buddy more than lovers. oh.. have i ever feel that we are lover before.. misunderstanding. gosh.. what am i tinking. other than intimacy i tink im no difference from his friends? where has the sweetness gone, comparing will make me feel even worst, ego he is, say him also cannot, no say him also cannot. how? even someone i dun really know will buy me food will buy me things when they go overseas, good things, perfume, nice food. he leh? did he ever think of me when he's outside? when asked him, he just said that he went for 1 week only. yah right. whatever. now you want me to tink of good things i can think of nothing, honestly, nothing. how like that? and die lah... everytime bad mood i will always try to find fault in him, but then how, can we last? will things change? tired. that is so terrible thought. stagnant life, stagnant relationship, stagnant study progress, work progress.. pimples broke out. hair britter, turning fatter, getting ugly.. down. i tink im suffering from change of hormones, super pmsing. ranting on and on. and i wnt to complain. i wnt to vent my anger im so fed up. with everything.