Dear finally got his internet access, happy at first because i thought that we will be able to communicate more often but i realised no.. i feel that we are drifting further apart. It's not a good feeling and i realised i have nothing to write about everyday... maybe i should consider to stop all these nonsense of blogging.. life is the same for me everyday. i tink i have a boring life. Worst still, I felt the closeness between me and dear is like drifting day by day. He doesn't seem to like me telling him off about playing game, but i really think it's getting too much. I am getting 30% of his attention last time when he's not so in-to game but now, I tink only 10%. he thinks I am boycotting all gamers, so see.. we can't even communicate. I dislike gamers. Define gamers: people who play game more than 2 hours per day. Is the game more interesting than me? So he rather see the computer screen like 30% a day than to actually spend time to catch up with all the losing-soon close feelings? WHAT AM I THINKING!! ARGHHHHHHH just pissed. Really, i can't find real topic to talk to him now because whenever i say something, i know 90% of his attention is at his game. dunno la.. and i realise we have not chatted on the phone for a very very long time...... whoever thinks that we are very fine and blissful? that's because things are too calm.